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Mar. 10th, 2011 09:59 amThese two blog posts are really resonating with me.
I don't like that I've become exactly that cliche of talking so much about the baby, the lack of sleep, the poop. But my life is pretty dominated by that right now. I get an hour on the train each day for "me time" to read/nap/catch up on podcasts, and if I'm lucky I get maybe an hour at the end of the day before falling asleep at 9:30. I feel bad talking baby stuff so much, though, because I know it's one of those things that people without kids don't like talking about (though, really, I don't mind listening to people talk about their pets, and that seems to be pretty equivalent; if it's something that's interesting to my friends then I'm interested in hearing about it). Anyway. Sorry to all of you that are bored with baby talk, hang in there with me and I hope to become more interesting when I can sleep through the night.
I have all this working mom guilt, and it's not so much that I want to do everything perfectly, it's just that I don't want to mess something up so drastically that I ruin West's chances of living a happy, healthy life. I'd like to also retain my own life, my own individuality that's not wrapped up in being A Mom, because if we do our job right then in 18 or so years he's going to be off living his life and we'll need to be not completely subsumed into an identity of only being parents. If that makes sense? I don't think I'm doing a terribly good job at that aspect of things right now, but I hope it will get easier with time.
Also, Christina Hendricks is in Boston today filming around Fanueil Hall.
I don't like that I've become exactly that cliche of talking so much about the baby, the lack of sleep, the poop. But my life is pretty dominated by that right now. I get an hour on the train each day for "me time" to read/nap/catch up on podcasts, and if I'm lucky I get maybe an hour at the end of the day before falling asleep at 9:30. I feel bad talking baby stuff so much, though, because I know it's one of those things that people without kids don't like talking about (though, really, I don't mind listening to people talk about their pets, and that seems to be pretty equivalent; if it's something that's interesting to my friends then I'm interested in hearing about it). Anyway. Sorry to all of you that are bored with baby talk, hang in there with me and I hope to become more interesting when I can sleep through the night.
I have all this working mom guilt, and it's not so much that I want to do everything perfectly, it's just that I don't want to mess something up so drastically that I ruin West's chances of living a happy, healthy life. I'd like to also retain my own life, my own individuality that's not wrapped up in being A Mom, because if we do our job right then in 18 or so years he's going to be off living his life and we'll need to be not completely subsumed into an identity of only being parents. If that makes sense? I don't think I'm doing a terribly good job at that aspect of things right now, but I hope it will get easier with time.
Also, Christina Hendricks is in Boston today filming around Fanueil Hall.
